Greg A Bogdan

TODAY IS OUR LAST DAY IN THE HOUSE, SO MANY MEMORIES HAVE BEEN COMING TO MIND, BRINGING OUR DAUGHTER HOME, YOU PLAYING WITH THE KIDS, THE PARTY'S AND ALL THE HOLIDAYS, THE KISSES THE LAUGHTER AND ALL THE LOVE WE SHARED IN THIS HOUSE WILL BE SO HARD TO LEAVE BEHIND. ITS ALL KIND OF BITTER SWEET TO THINK OF EVERYTHING WE HAVE ALL BEEN THROUGH THIS YEAR AND WHERE WE ALL ARE GOING FROM HERE, SO MUCH HAS CHANGED FOR US ALL, WE HIT ROCK BOTTOM REAL HARD IT STUNNED US FOR AWHILE BUT NOW ITS TIME TO START COMING OUT OF THAT DARK PLACE AND START TO FEEL THE SUN ON OUR FACES AGAIN :) THIS FIRST STEEP OUT IS THE HARDEST THING FOR ME TO DO, IT MEANS I REALLY AM ON MY OWN NOW, I HAVE TO CATCH MYSELF WHEN I FALL NO MORE COMFORT OF YOUR ARMS, NO MORE SAFETY NET. AS HARD AND AS SCARY AS IT ALL IS I KNOW I CAN DO IT AND MAKE SURE THE THREE OF US ARE HAPPY AND SAFE, FOR THE ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED THROUGH ALL OF THIS SORROW AND PAIN IS JUST HOW STRONG I NOW AM, AND IF IT WERE NOT FOR YOUR LOVE AND YOUR STRENGTH THAT YOU HAD ALWAYS SHOWED ME THROUGH THE YEARS I JUST MAY HAVE CURLED UP IN A BALL AND DIED. ITS BECAUSE OF YOU I AM WHO I AM TODAY FROM THE FIRST DAY YOU WALKED IN MY LIFE TO THE DAY YOU LEFT YOU GAVE ME SO MUCH LOVE AND HAPPINESS AND TAUGHT ME SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND MYSELF. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND I WILL TILL THE END!!   THERE WILL NEVER BE A GOODBYE SAID FOR US JUST A SEE YOU LATER :) XOXOXOXOXOXO

well my love  we have finally decided to move, so scared yes i am!! but i know its best for us, i cant live this way any more. we cant live like this anymore. we had a bbq today, more changes than some were expecting, but a good way to say good bye(well just for now) i cant believe i am finally doing it, i thought i would never say good bye,well really I'm not saying good bye but i think its time to smile again, i would love to smile and not cry anymore, i know your pushing me , i can feel it :) well i don't really know what I'm doing from here, but i know you will never let us fall your there no matter what i know that, but if its a mistake please let me know before i do it please!! i cant see life without you but I'm forced to, i don't want to go on without you but really there is no choice right!! i will always love you and i know you know that, please help others to see our love and that it will never fade!!i will always remember our love, its with me every day, you were my life, but that life has now changed, and i need to change with it, i need to make our kids happy they need at least that!! i guess that's it for now, stay close ok we still need you!! i love you baby!

We went to the fair today we all had a blast but it just was not the same without you, I swear I could see you every where, I found myself thinking of you all day!! Everything we did there the years before, I was so glad that your sister was there with me, I didn't have to eat my turkey leg alone :) It was nothing like sharing with you but still was nice! I cant believe how hard it is to do the littlest things without you now!! Today made it even more clear on how my life really will never be the same again!! I love you with all my heart and always will, I miss you so much!!    9/27/2009                                                 

YOU WERE MY DREAM COME TRUE!! IF I KNEW THEN HOW SHORT OUR LIFE TOGETHER WOULD HAVE BEEN, I STILL WOULD HAVE JUMPED AT THE CHANCE TO BE YOURS!! YOU GAVE ME MORE LOVE IN THE 10 YEARS WE WERE TOGETHER THAN I HAD EVER FELT IN MY LIFE, AND THAT LOVE WILL HOLD ME OVER FOR ALL OF MY TOMORROWS!! YOU WERE NOT ONLY MY BEST FRIEND BUT MY LOVER AND MY SOUL MATE AND BEST OF ALL MY HUSBAND AND THE FATHER OF MY CHILDREN. YOU WERE THE ONLY MAN IN MY LIFE I COULD FULLY COUNT ON, YOU NEVER LET ME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW RUFF OUR ROAD GOT YOU WERE ALWAYS BY MY SIDE PULLING US THROUGH. WELL I NEED YOU TO PULL ME THROUGH NOW, NOW WHEN ITS THE HARDEST TO DO, I NEED YOUR HAND MORE THAN EVER, I NEED YOUR GUIDENTS MORE NOW THAN EVER TO SHOW ME THE RIGHT WAY TO GO. I WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT HERE LOVING YOU, NEVER EVER WILL THAT LOVE STOP!!!! I SEE YOU EVERY DAY IN OUR CHILDREN'S EYES AND IN THERE LAUGHTER I CAN HEAR YOURS, SO I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH US, AND FOR THAT I AM SO THANKFUL, AT LEAST I GOT THAT PART OF YOU FOR FOREVER!! XOXOXOXOXO

MY SON, FROM THE DAY YOU WERE BORN YOU WERE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SPACIAL, I NEVER KNEW I COULD LOVE SOME ONE SO MUCH, AND YOU SHOWED ME THAT LOVE FOR SO MANY YEARS, AND I WAS NOT DONE LOVING YOU YET!! WHEN I LOOK IN TO JENIFERS AND THE GRAND BABIES EYES IT KILLS ME INSIDE, YOU JUST DONT KNOW KNOW HOW MANY LIVES YOU SHATTERED!! I LOVE YOU MY SON I ALWAYS WILL, YOU ARE A PART OF ME, YOU ALWAYS WILL BE!! ALWAYS MY LOVE, MOM

I WAS ASKED TONIGHT, "WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO GREG IF YOU COULD SEE HIM TONIGHT?". THE QUESTION MAID ME CRY! I WOULD TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU, AND IM SO SORRY I TOOK SO MUCH FOR GRANTED, YOU WERE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME (BESIDES THE KIDS) YOU TAUGHT ME SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND MYSELF, I HAVE YOU TO THANK FOR THE WOMEN I HAVE BECOME, I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM YOU AND TODAY I LEARN EVEN MORE ABOUT MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU AND WHAT WE ARE NOW GOING THROUGH. I COULD NEVER PUT IN TO WORDS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU OR HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME, EVEN THOW NO ONE GETS WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE WITH OUT YOU, THE PAIN I DONT THINK ANYONE COULD EVER UNDERSTAND!! IM HERE WITHOUT YOU FOR THE KIDS BUT ONE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN I KNOW THAT WITH EVERY PART OF ME. UNTIL THEN I WILL HOLD ON TO YOU AS TIGHT AS I CAN AND NEVER EVER LET GO!!

daddy i remember when mommy would give us hot sauce for saying bad words and one night you said a bad word and i told mommy that you needed hot sauce so i went and put hot sauce on your tongue and you acted like it was so hot even though you liked it, it was so funny, i remember laughing so hard. i miss you daddy, i wish you did not leave us we need you and mommy is always sad for you, make her happy again, i love you daddy, please come back!!

GOING TO THE STORE WAS ALWAYS AN ADVENTURE WITH YOU, I REMEMBER ONE TIME WHEN WE WERE PASSING BY THE FRESH SEA FOOD SECTION YOU WANTED SHRIMP AND CRAB (YOU SWORE YOU KNEW HOW TO COOK IT) I SAID NO AND YOU STARTED TO CRY AND THROW A FIT LIKE A LITTLE KID JUMPING UP AND DOWN TELLING ME "BUT BABE PLEASE" LONG STORY SHORT YOU GOT YOUR WAY (HOW COULD I SAY NO TO THAT, I WAS LAUGHING TO HARD TO) A COUPLE NIGHTS LATER YOU MADE CRAB LEGS FOR DINNER, HA HA HA WHEN YOU BIT INTO IT YOU HAD THE NASTIEST LOOK ON YOUR FACE, I JUST STARTING LAUGHING (HE SWORE HE COULD COOK IT REMEMBER) WELL WE HAD PIZZA THAT NIGHT!! AFTER THAT HE DID LEARN HOW TO COOK A PRETTY MEAN CRAB AND FISH DINNER!! GOING TO THE STORE WITHOUT YOU STILL SEEMS WRONG, I SEE YOU EVERY TIME I PASS THE FISH!! I MISS THAT LITTLE STUFF, YOU NEVER REALIZE AT THE TIME WHAT IT COULD MEAN TO YOU!! I LOVE YOU BABY AND MISS YOU MORE THAN I COULD EVER SAY!!