Greg A Bogdan

God of compassion, there is such a hole in my heart! Today should be a day of joy, but I feel only emptiness and loss. While the world celebrates around me, I remember Christmas celebrations of the past and I long to have my loved one with me. I bring my sorrows to you, Lord, like some odd gift of the magi and dump them at your feet. In my blind tears I wonder if anyone can possibly understand the depth of my sadness.

I know, you can. You sent your son to be with us in our deepest sorrows and I know that even though I might not feel it now, you are here with me, grieving with me, caring for me in my sadness. Dearest lord, help me to turn to the one I miss so much today and speak. Help me heal the loss of our parting and help me not to regret the things I didn't say. Sorrow tears at my heart, but today I ask that my loss soften my heart and make me more compassionate with everyone I meet, so that my loss may become a gift to others.

I remember............all the times we hung out when we were growing up. I have lots of fun memories of all of us. It was always Greg, Fidel, Issac and Me. Some of my funniest stories are about when we used to do beer runs and get all drunk together. Another one was when Greg borrowed the suburban from his mom and dad and we went to the ditches in Tome and parked and got all puffed. The suburban fell into the ditch and we had to walk and find some farmers to pull it out with the tractors. (It took 2 tractors to pull it out). then we had to hurry and take it to the car wash and clean it up before we took it back to Brenda and Greg Sr.

The wet speakers was what gave us away. Another one is when we used to meet each other for lunch at Sadies Mexican Restaurant. (Greg turned me on to that place, now I buy the salsa all the time).

And how can I forget the SS Monte Carlo. that was always your fix it project.

I can honestly say that the hardest I've partied was hanging out with Greg and the rest of the Los Lunas Clan.

God bless you and your family.

Love and Peace,

Theresa Madrid

Memories keep haunting me,
Memories of you.
You're in everything I cross,
In everything I do.

Nothing goes un-noticed,
There's reminders everywhere I turn.
It hurts to know I've lost you,
I can feel frustrations burn.

I can't cry like I need to,
To let this longing go.
The pain inside, so deep,
I honestly shouldn't know.

I haven't realized what's happened,
It just feels like I'm dreaming.
I'm going through life's motions,
With out any meaning.

It just hasn't hit yet,
Hasn't actually set in.
The impact lies un-known,
So the turmoil won't begin.

You stay with me always,
Day through to night.
Live through eyes wide open,
As I strive to hold on tight.

And how I feel about your loss,
I find impossible to convey.
Pain smashes regret,
Regrets I could never say.

So I go on missing you,
As the seconds change.
Because I'm living in a surreal state,
As the seasons set to rearrange.

I Love You Forever

My Love

Truly in my heart,
You occupy a place
Far deeper than the dark blue sea
Far truthful than truth itself.

In memories of you,
I lead my life peacefully
Hoping to be in your arms,
Soon and face you, Love.

Sharing a bond, our hearts
Will go on for ever.
Distance between us
My life revolves around you.

I wait, to see the love in your eyes,
To hear it through your lips.
To touch you
And love you for eternity.

Living every moment with you
My dreams filled with you.
Feeling your touch
Realizing the pain and agony.

Fate can will otherwise.
But my love will never cease for you
A permanent place you hold
In that heart of mine.

Deep within I mourn
For missing you
Just a matter of a few years
I have lost you.

I stand here culpable,
For irresponsibility
Undergoing pains of separation.
In a helpless condition.

Yet I realize that I am
In a room of darkness
Though I have candles around me.
See it, hear it, feel it
I want you beside me,
Loving me as truly as can be.

Thinking of you,
My days are ageing.                                                                                                                                      


My heart cries out
My love, come towards me
Am waiting for you.

I love you.

You are the best, at any point.
Permanent resident of
My heart community.
Oh my Love!

Never leave me alone,
Shall die in your absence
Wait for you in heaven
Waiting for a better life with you next time

I was laying in bed with Nevaeh the other night and she wanted me to tell her stories of when I was little and she really had my mind going but one that really stuck out was:  When we lived in Albuquerque off of Greigos and 4th st and you first started kindergarden we would go with mom and walk you to La Luz Elementry and every day after we droped you off me and Jello would play with your Micro Machines ha ha ha ha! it was so funny when you got off of school you would tell mom " there playing with my stuff tell them to stop dont let them play with it". I love you very much and I'm glad I can remember the little things.

YOU'RE OUR ROSE!      

~ CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU~

It's going to be a sad Christmas this year

without your laughter and without your cheer.

I'll miss the sight of you with your redskins hat,

and the smile you shared from where you sat.

I'll think about all the Christmas's in the past,

and hold on to the memories that slipped so fast.

For they are all I have left to remember,

on this sad Christmas morning in December.

I'll think about you and cherish each thought,

I'll think of your smile and the happiness it brought.

I can't quite grasp it,

still can't take it in.

Is this the price I'm paying?

For some un-forgivable sin.

I can never tell you Brother how sad it will be

to spend Christmas without you here with me.

I just wish you'd touch my heart in such a way,

that I could live through the pain of Christmas Day.

And , help me to remember that your love

is still sent to me from the Heavens above.

And although you won't decorate the Christmas tree,

Your spirit will light the lights for me to see.

Oh, I'll hear your voice in each Christmas song.

I'll see your face in each family that comes along.

and although my heart will be broken and torn...

I'll know you're with Jesus on this Christmas morn.

No, Christmas won't be the same without your smiling face

but I'll know you're in a much better place.

I'll think of my precious brother in everything I do

Cause, it just won't be "Christmas without you!"

I answered the phone,
Your wife's distant voice spoke.
Whispered that you were gone,
I stumbled, she broke.

I got dressed quickly,
I was straight by your side.
Such an angel sleeping,
So many tears, I cried.

I huged you in my arms,
You were already so cold.
I couldn't whisper goodbye,
Nor believe the words I'd been told.

I laid you back down gently,
I ran, ran away.
Despair took over,
And words I couldn't say.

I turned to go back,
Kept seeing your face.
I felt so defeated,
So god damn out of place.

Shouted that it isn't fair,
As I got back to you.
They said it was quick,
Nothing they could do.

So now the days are strange,
And I'm screeming your name.
I can't bring you back,
And there's no one to blame.

So going on with out you,
Is all that I can do.
So I'll fall apart silently,
As Im missing you.

I remember when your uncle Russ was meeting me for our first date a party at your uncle Glens and aunti Bevs house. You and your brother and sister were so nice to me and made  me feel at ease unlike the grownups lol. you were so tall and handsome even in the 8th grade. You grew up alot since last i saw you. you know you were only 5 when i first  laid eyes on your beautiful face. Thankyou for being my friend and family. I miss you love aunti aloka.