Greg A Bogdan

Man brother its been a minutes since I wrote you a Lil sum sum but best believe there's not a day that goes by that I think of you doggy dog. Wishing I could just sit down and enjoy some conversation with my boy again. Even just to see you one more time brother man do I miss you greg. Times sure have changed brother people changed not cupid always the same knucklehead. one things for certain you will never lose that place in my heart homie. After all these years I can still hear you tell me on the phone YOU CAN'T QUIT I NEED YOU YOUR MY BOY. its crazy how we used to just say ya ya when our parents used to tell us just enjoy life while your young one day you gonna look back and say I should of listened. We already pushing 40 now brother wow but not a day that I can think of looking back when we were 14,15 just kids having a good time would I ever change. God couldn't have given me the perfect friend the smartest brother and to know I would be safe the bestest roll dog.we used to sit and say how it was gonna be our boys growing up together Gabriel and Dominic then you were blessed with a Lil girl man you would have me sit and draw her name over and over till it was just right for a tattoo. Now I too am blessed with my Lil girl brother damia jade Valencia montour and another son Lil LLuciano you niece and nephews. now when I see two good friends that still get together like they did back in the day it lifts me up man we still chill like we did back then cuz you never left you always stayed in my heart brother always I miss you so f##kin much i won't say till we meet again cuz in not done telling you Greg dog that I love you brother I LOVE YOU HOMIE. you already know ........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARNAL IVE BEEN HERE THINKING OF MY BOY AND MISSING YOU EVERYDAY DOG. WE WILL BE CHILLIN TOGETHER AGAIN DOG JUST LIKE THE GOOD OLD DAYS .IM SURE WE WILL FIND A WAY TO STUR UP SOME KIND OF TROUBLE THERE  WHERE YOU ARE CARNAL UP IN HEAVEN . I JUST WISH THAT I COULD ROLL UP TO YOUR PAD HOMIE AND DRINK A BIRTHDAY BREW WITH YOU DOGGY DOG. I KNOW YOU ALREADY HAVE A PLACE THERE BY YOUR SIDE JUST LIKE YOU ALWAYS HAD THAT PLACE FOR ME HERE BROTHER. I CANT SAY IT ENOUGH GREG DOG I LOVE YOU HOMIE DAMN I MISS YOU MAN YOU WERE THAT FRIEND THAT WAS ALWAYS THERE IN THE TIME OF TROUBLE TIMES AND NEVER GAVE UP ON WE THOUGHT THE WORLD HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT US.YOU WERE AND STILL ARE THE TRUE AND BEST FRIEND GOD HAS EVER SEND ANYONE. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREG DOG I STILL AND WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAY BEFORE YOU PASSED WHEN YOU TOLD ME ON THE PHONE WHEN I WAS GOING TO QIUT WORK HOMIE WHEN YOU SAID YOU CANT QIUT ISSAC I NEED YOU "YOUR MY BOY". I LOVE YOU CARNAL THE BIG 34

The pumpkins are bright and ready for carving,
The kids have their bags for candy - they're starving.
The costumes have been made and are cute as can be,
The only one not ready for Halloween is me!

Vampires and witches and goblins galore,
Who is that knock knock knocking at my door?
It's a princess, a jailbird, a ghost and a nurse,
And a very tiny girl with a giant size purse.

I'll be there in a minute I yell from the hall,
They are banging down the door can you hear them y'all?
Wait just a minute and the candy lady will give you a treat,
I wonder how much of this junk they really do eat?

I'll go put on a wig and some strange looking make-up,
And answer the door with a whiskey filled coffee cup.
It will be so much more fun for me that way,
And hopefully I won't remember much of Halloween Day.

~Christmas Without You~

It's going to be a sad Christmas this year
without your laughter & without your cheer. 
I'll miss the sight of you with your Redskins Santa's hat, 
and the smile you shared from where you sat. 

I'll think about all the Christmas's in the past,
and hold to the memories that slipped so fast.
For they're all I have left to remember,
on this sad Christmas morning in December. 

I'll think about you and cherish each thought; 
I'll think of your smile & the happiness it brought. 
And as I listen to the church bells ring, 
your voice will echo as the choirs sing. 

I can never tell you,  how sad it will be 
to spend Christmas without you here with me. 
I just wish you'd touch my heart in such a way,
that I could live through the pain of Christmas Day. 

And, help me to remember that your love 
is still sent to me from the Heavens above. 
And although you won't decorate the Christmas tree, 
Your spirit will light the lights for me to see.

Oh, I'll hear your voice in each Christmas song. 
I'll see your face in each guy that comes along. 
And although my heart will be broken and torn... 
I'll know you're with Jesus on this Christmas morn. 

No, Christmas won't be the same without your smiling face
but I'll know you're in a much better place.
I'll think of my precious brother in everything I do... 
Cause, it just won't be "Christmas Without You!"

 

'Twas the month before Christmas and I dreaded the days,
That I knew I was facing - the holiday craze.
The stores were all filled with holiday lights,
In hopes of drawing customers by day and by night.

As others were making their holiday plans,
My heart was breaking - I couldn't understand.
I had lost my brother a few years before,
And I knew what my holiday had in store.

When out of nowhere, there arose such a sound,
I sprang to my feet and was looking around,
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash

The sight that I saw took my breath away,
And my tears turned to smiles in the light of the day.
When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a cluster of butterflies fluttering near.
With beauty and grace they performed a dance,
I knew in a moment this wasn't by chance.

The hope that they gave me was a sign from above,
That my child was still near me and that I was loved.
The message they brought was my holiday gift,
And I cried when I saw them in spite of myself.

As I knelt closer to get a better view,
One allowed me to pet it - as if it knew -
That I needed the touch of its fragile wings,
To help me get through the holiday scene.

In the days that followed I carried the thought,
Of the message the butterflies left in my heart -
That no matter what happens or what days lie ahead,
Our children are with us - they're not really dead.

Yes, the message of the butterflies still rings in my ears,
A message of hope - a message so dear.
And I imagined they sang as they flew out of sight,
"To all bereaved families - We love you tonight!"

 

ESE GREG DOG I ASK YOU PLEASE HELP ME  BUILD UP THE STRENGTH HOMIE . THE STRENGTH THAT I NEED TO SEE YOUR MOM AND YOUR DAD YOUR BROTHER AND SISTER AND BE ABLE TO NOT LOSE CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS DOG.YOU KNOW US AS MEN WE ALWAYS KNEW THAT WE HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER QUENO CARNAL. BUT WE NEVER WOULD SAY TO EACH OTHER CUZ MEN THINK THATS KIND OF GAY OR FAGS HA HA RIGHT. BUT ESE AFTER I  TOOK A LOOK AT YOU ESE  FOR THE LAST TIME KNOWING I CANT CHILL WITH MY BOY,HEAR YOUR VOICE OR EVEN SEE YOUR FACE NO MORE MADE ME THINK ESE THAT OUR TIME ON THIS ROCK HOMES IS TO SHORT TO FIND OURSELFS LOOKING BACK SAYING I WISH QUENO CARNAL. BUT HERE I AM WISHING DOG,WISHING THAT I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU ESE THE WORDS WE SHOULD SAY TO EACHOTHER MORE OFTEN THE LITTLE TIME THAT WE ARE HERE HOMES . SO I JUST WANT TO TAKE AND CHARISH THIS MOMENT AS I LET YOU MY BROTHER,MY HEART, KNOW  GREG DOG THAT--I LOVE YOU--- ALWAYS HOMIE . I MISS YOUR ASS HOMES... TILL THEN QUENO.  YOUR DOG ALWAYS ISSAC MONTOUR 

You consume all of my hours,
Minutes in my day.
I have so much of you,
So much I long to say.

I know you can't hear me,
I miss you more and more.
It's getting so much harder,
Harder than it was before.

I'm fighting to move on,
But I'm not ready, need more time.
Need a little more understanding,
Somebody who won't cross that line.

You haunt my every dream,
Prompt the tears that I cry.
I'm hiding from the cliches,
Don't want to wonder why.

Because it hurts so much,
More than I can bare.
How can it be all right?
When you're no longer there.

And where you used to live,
The places you used to be.
Are where you've disappeared from,
Where I'm losing me.

I'm nobody with out you,
I'm just not the same.
Honestly, it's killing me,
I can barely say your name.

I know you can't come home,
And I understand that you're gone.
But it's going to take me sometime,
To accept it and be strongYou consume all of my hours,
Minutes in my day.
I have so much of you,
So much I long to say.

I know you can't hear me,
I miss you more and more.
It's getting so much harder,
Harder than it was before.

I'm fighting to move on,
But I'm not ready, need more time.
Need a little more understanding,
Somebody who won't cross that line.

You haunt my every dream,
Prompt the tears that I cry.
I'm hiding from the cliches,
Don't want to wonder why.

Because it hurts so much,
More than I can bare.
How can it be all right?
When you're no longer there.

And where you used to live,
The places you used to be.
Are where you've disappeared from,
Where I'm losing me.

I'm nobody with out you,
I'm just not the same.
Honestly, it's killing me,
I can barely say your name.

I know you can't come home,
And I understand that you're gone.
But it's going to take me sometime,
To accept it and be strong

I'm in a broken state,

lost,silent,cold.

Standing in the distance,

with nothing left to hold.

 

Tired and weary,

insecure and weak.

Fragile, so fragile,

I can barely speak.

 

I keep on going,

Keep moving, won't stop.

I won't take time,

To catch the tears that drop.

 

Won't take time to think,

I don't want to cry.

I just wish I knew,

Wish that I knew why.

 

It shouldn't have happened,

But it has,your gone.

I haven't realized it yet,

and it's wrong, so wrong.

 

I can't find the words,

To express my feelings so deep.

And I sing myself,

Sing myself to sleep.

 

Because it hasn't set in,

I seem to be all right.

but my world is crashing down,

and I'm struggling to hold on tight.

 

And I just want to stop,

Let go and hide,

No, this reality I know,

I can't seem to abide.

Lost in my thoughts,

My many thoughts of you.

Need your hands to hold,

To pull me on through.

Through my dark slumber,

Away from the pain.

I can't escape getting soaked

Getting soaked by yesterday's rain.

It's going to get me,

and paint me blue.

On to the canvas,

Canvas of me and you.

My rainbows and butterflies,

Have all faded away.

My perfect world is darkening,

Into a deeper shade of gray.

My yesteryears are disappearing,

My memories remind me.

Can you come and show me?

How I'm supposed to be?

How could you leave us?

It's just so un-fair.

You didn't even whisper goodbye,

Just when I needed you to be there.

I can't bring myself,

to say goodbye.

Your gone, just gone,

And nobody cares why.

So can you come back?

Because I just can't believe.

Oh, show me where to go,

I can barely breathe.

 

Nothing compares to you!   ITS BEEN 1 YEAR 6 MONTHS 6 DAYS 10 HOURS. since you went away : ( 

If we could bring you back again,
For one more hour or day,
We’d express all our unspoken love;
We’d have countless things to say.If we could bring you back again,
We’d say we treasured you,
And that your presence in our lives
Meant more than we ever knew.

If we could bring you back again,
To tell you what we should,
You’d know how much we miss you now,
And if we could, we would.

its Christmas eve and your brother and sister came over of course you were on our minds i just want you to know we love you but you already know that I just like to talk to you man you would of laughed your ass off tonight i know you see us from heaven thats comforting oh and i hear what you were trying to tell me the other night you know i will always be there for them hope to see you again in my dreams its been a while love you my nephew

My Holidays

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Celebrate with joy and good cheer
But don't blame me if I can't comply
For if I did, it would all be a lie

Be glad that you're you and not me
because the holidays only bring pain you see
My thoughts are of a Christmas past
And only my heartache seems to last

My oldest brother that I loved so dear
That grew into a man, That I saw so clear
Never did I think that he would leave me
especially with all the presents neatly under the tree

I miss his laughter, his giggle, his smiles
For one of those, I would walk a million miles
His presence was a wondrous thing
And his absence has brought this poisonous sting

This, I won't get over and that won't change
I now know love on a different range

So go, be happy and shout with glee
But please don't look with disappointment at me
For my brother is in Heaven and I miss him so
Just be on your merry way, but I can't go.

I'M WAITING FOR TOMORROW

SO I CAN FORGET ABOUT TODAY.

I'M LONGING TO TURN THE CLOCK BACK,

OH, ISN'T THERE A WAY?

 

I'M FALLING, FALLING DOWN,

REALITY HAS ESCAPED ME.

IT'S NOT THE WAY,

THE WAY THAT IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE.

 

BECAUSE THAT DAY HAS CHANGED ME DRASTICALLY,

I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THE PAIN.

I'M AVOIDING THE ELEMENTS,

OF THAT MORNING THAT REMAINS.

 

I'M HIDING IN THE SHADOWS,

PUTTING A DISTANCE BETWEEN NOW.

CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO THINK

TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND HOW.

 

IT JUST PLAIN HURTS TOO MUCH,

TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE.

BROTHER, HOW COULD GOD?

SEPERATE ME FROM YOU.

 

IT HASN'T YET SET IN,

BUT MY TEARS KEEP FALLING.

WHY COULDN'T SOMEONE?

HAVE COME TO YOUR CALLING.

 

IT'S LIKE I CAN'T BREATH,

CAN'T GET A BREATH.

I TIRED TO BUT I COULDN'T,

COULDN'T SAVE YOU FROM YOUR DEATH.

 

SO HERE I AM BOTHER,

AND I'M LOST ON WHAT TO DO.

HERE I AM ANGEL,

LONGING FOR YOU.

I FEEL LIKE I'VE JUST EXISTED

AND NOW IT'S BEEN A YEAR

I DON'T KNOW HOW I'VE LIVED AND BREATHED

WITHOUT YOU BEING HERE.

 

I KNOW YOU LIVED YOUR LIFETIME

AS SHORT AS THAT SEEMS TO ME,

BUT THE PAIN IN MY HEART IS STILL SO GREAT,

YET I KNOW YOUR SPIRIT IS FREE.

 

AT TIMES I THINK I HEAR YOU

THE THOUGHTS COME TO MY MIND.

I STRUGGLE FOR THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE,

BUT YOUR VOICE I CANNOT FIND.

 

YET YOU COME TO ME IN MANY WAYS

SO I KNOW YOU DID NOT DIE,

YOU WANT TO TELL ME THAT YOU'RE CLOSE

AND TO PLEASE STOP ASKING "WHY".

 

OUR LIVES ON EARTH SEEMS ALL TO BRIEF,

OR BRIEF AS IT SEEMS TO ME.

BUT WHERE YOU ARE IS FOREVER.

GOD CALLS IT ETERNITY!

 

Damn I just keep thinking about you I mean I wanna move on but I can't move on, It like I can't even believe your gone, I don't know but I'm gonna go ahead and talk about it,listen. I'm sitting looking out the window like Damn tryna fix this situation thats at hand, Your still running through my mind when I'm knowing that you should'nt be, I thought I just saw you and I'm knowing that it could'nt be. Cause you aint comming back and I'm so appalled. I still got a lot of pain I aint dealt with it all. I still got my other brother and all our loved ones and I thank God for that, But I just want my biggest brother back.That's not the end of it, I'm trying to let you go. I can't get a grip of it is what I'm trying to let you know. It's like I'm numb;in denial, I've got to learn to say goodbye. I'm working at it and it aint getting no better just tryna be like, yeah, forget it, whatever. Instead I'm staring out this glass looking at this bad weather, damn I gotta pull myelf together. Cause when I'm with somebody all I think about is you, When I'm all alone crying for you is all I want to do. I miss your smiling face, the jokes, and your laugh, all the time we spent together makes it hard to get you out of my system. You don't know what you did to us, do you even understand?  I'm too attached my heart wont let me fall back, I got it bad that's what you can call that, When I see you on our home videos that's the worse for me. Used to love the little things you did that's what works for me. It's too major, don't see you on the holidays, No what you doing, where you at, or can I come chill later? The counselors keeps saying just let him go now, Believe me, I'm trying, I just don't know how. We been vacationing traveling in all the hot spots, we took your whole family like we were top notch, All that still aint poppin and my brain aint stopping, still thinking; who he with, what's he doing, is he even watching? I never had this kind of problem in my life this is my first time dealing with this kind of fight. It's every day and every night and every time I see your kids face, how much you all look alike Damn this aint even right. Is it wrong for me to fell this way you been running through my mind all day can you fell me, I been trying to get you off my mind and I can't after all this time that's what kills me. I remember everything that you and me talked about And if I could, I would turn back the hand of time and correct all my mistakes that I ever did. But now I guess I gotta move on, Right? It's still hard and I still love you and miss you till this day.

 

                                                God saw you getting tired
                                            and a cure was not meant to be,
                                             So he put his arms around you
                                              and whispered "Come to Me".
                                           With tearful eyes we watched you,
                                               as we saw you pass away.
                                            Although we loved you deeply,
                                              we could not make you stay.
                                         Your Golden Heart stopped beating,
                                               hard working hands at rest.
                                           God broke our hearts to prove to us,
                                                  He only takes the best.

The month of August is one of regret.

It brings back the day we will never forget.

Gone is the one we love so dear.

Deep in our hearts, you are always near.

 

If roses grow in Heaven

Lord please pick a bunch for me.

Place them in my brothers arms,

and tell him their from me.

Tell him I love Him and miss him

and when he turns and smiles,

place a kiss on his cheek

and hold him for a while.

Beacuse remembering him is easy,

I do it everyday

But there's an ache within my heart

that will never go away.

 

 

 

One night I cried to Jesus

As I sat beneath a tree;

I looked up into the open sky

and hoped he'd answer me.

 

I'm lost dear lord.....

I've travled far but still I seem to roam;

Please light the way and lead me, lord,

I need to get back home.

 

I told him of my burdens

and of the sadness in my heart;

That from his gracious love

I'd never felt so far apart.

 

Why did you take my brother, lord?

I cannot understand!

No longer can I see his preciuos face

Or hold his huge hands.

 

I'm angery, lord... I'm missing him,

I'm drowning in my sorrow;

Please help to heal my yesterday

and face each new tomorrow.

 

It was then I heard him deep voice

and felt his presence near;

How I wanted to hug him

As I cried another tear.

 

He said Sister, Im an angel now,

My spirit will be free;

I'm an angel now in Heaven,

So please don't cry for me.

 

I was chosen by our lord above

and now I'm in his care;

Whenever you need me'

Just look inside your heart;

I promise to be there

 

No on can ever take away

our bond with one another:

For I'll always be your brother

as you will always be my little sister.

 

So if you cannot find your way

or the road to home seems far;

just look up to the Heavens

and I'll be your guiding star.

 

He said Sister I'm an angel now,

My spirit will be free;

I'm an angel now in Heaven....

There's no need to cry for me!